Here's a little more explanation about what I was alluding to in my last post: I've been able to uncover some faulty thinking that I've had the past year and so have discovered that I really don't trust God's goodness like I used to. It's really been a problem ever since the Tech shootings, I think... and then every time something bad has happened since then, it's confirmed my bitterness at him. This is a little embarrassing to admit. I'm here doing ministry in Ireland, and I don't trust that God is good! It's a thought process that has been going on underneath the surface of my life, but of course it affects things. I'm glad it's been uncovered though, because now I've been able to talk it through with others and have been arguing with God about it too. He's being so patient with me and has already been working with my heart. I really am learning so much here.
Monday, June 16, 2008
day off!
I am learning a lot. Sometimes I get frustrated because I feel like I should be contributing something amazing to this ministry at every moment of the trip. Steph brought someone to Christ during Open Abbey this week in SPANISH, which is so exciting... and I can't help wishing I had a great story like that to share too. Yesterday was an encouraging day though. I was talking to one of the church members in the morning and out of nowhere, he started talking to me about gifts. "Don't ask for different gifts," he said, "Maximize the ones you've been given." I'm not sure exactly what my "gifts" are, but it was nice to be reminded that we are all different and maybe my contributions won't always look the same as someone else's.
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Jack- I'm so glad you are having the chance to find these things out. They are invaluable and the fact that God is bringing them out in you shows that he really really cares about your heart toward him.
"Present your requests to God and he will give you the desires of your heart :-)"
Thanks for sharing, J-La, what a beautiful work God is doing in your life!
Your gifts -- I'm not going to write some platitude about blah blah blah you have lots of great gifts. Rather, I want to encourage you that you are a great and enthusiastic LISTENER. I love that about you, I always feel like you are paying attention, engaged, and taking the conversation to heart. You are slow to respond (unlike old blabbermouth here) and that is also a huge gift! I pray that God will continue to reveal His giftings in your life to you in Dublin. Love ya!
oh thank you maripat! :)
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